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Tuesday 25 August 2009

28 weeks today

where's the time gone, can't believe Sunshine will be here in 11 weeks at the latest, hopefully all ready to begin his 'real' CDH journey, he's sure got a fighting spirit in there let's hope he keeps it up and it serves him well. I'm sure he's still breech and he's kickin big feet into the bottom of my back so have been suffering quite a bit with that, but he's soooooooo worth it.


only 2 days to go till the 4d scan i can't wait to see him like for real and whichever way this journey ends it'll be a wonderful thing to have, just wish we got the same with Nathan.

Something that kind of annoys me a bit is the way most people don't realise how serious this all is, find myself wanting to scream, don't you know this baby could die too, it's like they think right ok he's poorly, but he'll have an operation when he's born and he'll be fine, i soooo wish it was as easy as that, but at the same time thinking that way has what's got us through the last 11 weeks of knowing he has CDH, refusing to think about all the complications etc, telling ourselves so many times exactly as above, that ok he's poorly but he just needs an operation when he's born and he'll be fine and we WILL bring him home, but then we get closer to another appointment and scan and reality comes crashing back in that it's serious and he could die. 
it's a vicious cycle.


On another note, his cot and mattress are on their way, courtesy of his nana, spoiling him already lol, so yesterday i went and bought him a lovely mobile to go on it, hope he likes it it's got 20 melodies, 20 lullabies, some sung songs and some nature tunes, i'm yet to get it out the box, just to make sure it works properly you understand lol.


6 comments:

Caroline said...

Gosh mate, not too long now eh? I know exactly what u mean. When we were pregnant with sam everyone just kept saying 'he'll be alright' etc. Did my head in. Didn't know whether they realy believed this or were just trying to comfort me iykwim. I wish I could say I know everything's gonna b fine. But I sure hope it is!
Give sunshine a rub from me and da honk
xxx

Unknown said...

Hayley hun,
I am so sorry i havent beenround to support you through all this. You are a very special lady.
Sunshine, Rainbow and Nathan must be so proud to have you as their mummy.
Love and hugs always
Deb xxxxxxxx

Tracy Meats said...

Stay positive and strong for your little guy!!! I love the mobile you got him...he is going to love it! Ian loved his mobile in the NICU we bought him to have in the hospital once he was transferred to a crib and out of the warmer. Hope you have a good 4D scan!!

Thinking of you, Tracy Meats - mom to Ian from Cherubs

Anonymous said...

i know Caroline it's gettin scarily close now :s hope ur doin ok xx

Anonymous said...

thanks Deb hope ur doin ok too (((())))

Anonymous said...

thanks Tracy, i'm guessin he wont be allowed it till he's in a proper cot which is a shame cos i know he'll love it, but it'l be worth the wait xx

 

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