hospital confirmation

got the letter confirming Lewis's hospital stay, and 'pleased' to say he'll be having his stay back in 3b, which is like the NICU stepdown ward. he was in there just before he came home, last stay he had in May we were in ward 4, i didn't like that much, hopefully this time it means we'll get a wee room rather than a pull down bed in the shared ward where you're not allowed to shut the curtains round the bed and have to listen to the other parents staying over snoring all night, not sure how long he'll be in it just depends on whether they can do his operation by keyhole but to be honest i think we and them will be surprised if they can do it by keyhole.
The mor i think about this fundo the more i'm unsure, like really really unsure, but Ricky says it's best for Lewis, the hospital says it's best for Lewis, in fact every1 says it's best for Lewis, every1 except me, but guess i'll just have to be quiet, hopefully we'll get to see his consultant beforehand and i can express my fears to him (i have a lot of concerns regarding the fundo), i am however looking forward to getting the Gtube, my baby will look even more beautiful without the nasty tube stuck to his face all the time, and it also means that no1 will ever know there's anything wrong with him and the stares and ignorant whispers can stop, would rather people just ask but they won't, i mean it's worse if we're out and we're feeding him, people stare, how would they like it if i sat and stared at them while they were getting their dinner.