Operation Date and Dentist

firstly, had a call from Lewis's consultant's secretary this afternoon with a date for the fundo and he'll be having his Gtube fitted at the same time, so we've to take him in for 2pm on the 21st July and he'll go to theatre the morning the 22nd, mixture of feelings for me at the minute but mostly i guess i'm scared, i can't bear the thought of them wheeling him away from me again, or even going into theatre with him and staying with him till he's 'out' and it's less than a month away :( really hope they'll be able to do it keyhole, but when we were there in May the consultant said it's common for them not to be able to do it keyhole because he's been operated on there before things can be really stuck together inside so should be prepared for having to open him back up, just really hope so much they can do it keyhole, it'll be less stress for him and a quicker recovery.

On the plus side of it all i'm 'looking forward' to him finally being able to get rid of the NG tube, it'll be so weird seeing him for the 1st time in 8 months with a completely clear face, am just feeling  abit 'phobic' of this feeding tube through his tummy, what if he pulls at it or it falls out or something, ugh gives me the willies thinking about it, will be so much better for him finally having the feeding tube out of his nose and throat, it must be so horrible having that there, i can only omagine, but i did ask Ricky months ago to let me pass a tube on him and i'd feed him thickened coffee through it so he could tell me what it's like but he refused lol.

Anyway as for the dentist, Lewis had his 1st visit to the dentist today, he was his usual smiling away, oh by the way, it took me 2 hours to go round our local supermarket today because of Lewis smiling and waving at every1 so of course they all just had to stop me, anyway dentist isn't too worried about his teeth at the moment as he isn't taking anything official orally, but like me bit worried about the reflux but we'll just wait and see what happens after the fundo operation.

we're so lucky to have him here with us. i really can't say it enough, he's just brought so much 'sunshine' back into our lives, he really is such a great baby, he just makes it all so worth it, even all the washing and ironing lol just wish he could have it a bit easier, or better still i wish i could go right back and go through it all for him xxx